How does a hero handle pain?

With the use of intoxicants
he was able to go to
another world in his mind.
Just like he used to do
with the morphine
when he was all
split in half.
He begged for the morphine then,
demanded the morphine then.

“damned if you are administering
the correct dosage
on this particular machine”
he whispered hoarsely
to the black nurse.
“I know this particular machine.
I have been here that long, yes,
and you have just given me
one tenth, A TENTH
DAMN YOU…
…A TENTH…
OF WHAT I AM
SUPPOSED
TO
BE
GETTING!!!”

You know what
that nurse told him.
you know what
that nurse told him.
you know what.
you know what.
you know what
that nurse told him—
“You living high on the hog, mister”
that nurse
told him.

He was both wildly furious
and cowed.
He was 36 years old then.
He had such a long way to go
to get

Here.

Same Same But Different: Returning to Vietnam

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I was in the garden planting onions in my underpants when my neighbor, Moisés González, a documentary filmmaker, poked his head over the fence. After a few pleasantries, he got around to the point.

“I was wondering if you maybe wanted to write an article about a project I am working on.”

“What about?” I asked.

“Vietnam veterans.”

I rocked back on my heels.

First off, no one has ever approached me about writing an article. It should feel like an honor, right? But it also felt like a task, and I felt a scrunching in my gut as I anticipated the bad feeling I would have demurring. So I tried not to think about it.

Second off, Vietnam veterans? Hasn’t that been played out?

Born on the Fourth of July. Saw it.

Rambo. Saw it…a bunch.

Blood on the Tracks: The Life and Times of S. Brian Willson. Read it.

AK-47. Shot it. At a berm. Almost put my eye out.

“No, this movie is different,” he said. “It’s about veterans that have gone back to Vietnam to heal the wounds of war. Guys helping clear unexploded munitions, working on Agent Orange issues. We’re working on the funding now.”

“Really?” I said, not buying it. “You’re talking about Americans? American soldiers going back to Vietnam to disarm bombs and replant the jungle? And they’re over there now? Never heard of such a thing.”

“That’s why this film needs to be made,” said Moisés.

I suspected he was standing on something, given how much of his head was showing above the fence. “No one knows about it. Some of them have been there for years, even decades. Healing, making peace with themselves.”

There’s a phrase I wasn’t ready for. Maybe Moisés knew how to talk to me, and maybe he didn’t. But he had my full attention.

Soldiers are always trying to make peace with themselves, with their conscience. It might be because they feel bad about not being able to stuff their buddy’s guts back into the gaping hole where his stomach used to be, how he died right there, choking and stuttering some pitiful shit about “tell my momma this” or “tell my momma that.” Or maybe they shot up a vehicle that seemed suspicious at a checkpoint and it turned out to be three adults and in the backseat two small children. (It is not every person that can shrug off this kind of stuff and just get over it. See Waltz with Bashir.)

So how does a soldier go back to Vietnam, where we killed 5 million people, or roughly 13 percent of their 1965 population, and make peace? (In comparison, using today’s population, the equivalent number of U.S. citizens would be about 40 million.)

Do you first acknowledge, openly, “What we did to you was like you killing 40 million of us, and we understand any resentment. Trust me, our people would be very upset with you for killing 40 million of us. But that being said, we come to you now not with guns, but with open hands, in peace. Because we have a conscience that does not let us sleep. Even after all these years.”

Whatever the case, it is a story I want to hear more of. A story I will put my onions down long enough to write about. Because if enough soldiers turn out to have a conscience, and enough soldiers are filmed having a conscience, and word of this gets around, this sort of condition may gain some traction among those who need it most—the ones who send us to war without themselves serving, without themselves ever knowing or tasting the blood of war, treating our courage as a commodity and never, not once, partaking in our sacrifice.

Make your film, Moisés.

(Read about and support the documentary film project, Same Same But Different by Moisés González and Deryle Perryman, at kck.st/samepeace )

Transposing Images

I was a good soldier.
When asked to transpose the image
of a green pop-up target
over the image of a
live human being
at 300 meters
I was successful.
When asked to transpose the
image
at 200 meters
I was successful.
When asked to transpose
at 100 meters:
again, successful.

They could discover no distance
(prone, running, crouching
running to prone,
crouching to prone,
kneeing to crouch)
at which I failed
to perform due to years of
intensive “Ivan”* training.

*“Ivans” were 3-dimensional green and red plastic silhouettes used for bayonet, rifle fire, machine gun fire and grenade training purposes. They were intended to mimic a Soviet enemy soldier wearing a large fur hat.

VETERAN CHARGED WITH INDECENT EXPOSURE

You could say I’ve gone completely undercover.

I don’t even go to parties anymore

unless they’re killing a pig

peeling strips of back fat off it

and draping them over the fence.

You’ve maybe been to this kind of party,

where only two or three of the guests speak the language

and there is a lot of bowing and nodding among the

Old Men and Women.

Older than that.

Even older than that.

Much older than that.

(Picture of

REALLY OLD MAN!

OLD TOOTHLESS WOMAN!)

 

(Laughter! Applause!)

 

(Take 1)

Obama is much too young a man to be president.

The president can’t be that young. It ain’t seemly.

Kennedy was young—handsome too—but he was

after all,

white,—

Innit!

 

(Take 2)

Obama is much too young a man to be president.

Should be someone much older, like a

Morgan Freeman

or

what’s another

black president

lookalike?

Oh, yeah,

Geico man.

Innit!

 

(Take 3)

Obama is much too young to be president.

Maybe if his kids were a little uglier…

more bucktoothed say… … … … … …

(giggles, chuckles, not full applause, a small cough

in the front

but mostly modest

laughter)

…Innit!

 

When a black man can be the

CEO

of a big ol’ insurance company

like GEICO (Laughter!)

now that’s

ALL CAPS— (Booming relief of laughter!)

G-E-I-C-O,

Period! (Flood of laughter! Relief! That guy is so funny! CEO!)

 

ACT 2 SC. 1

after all

you tamed

what could not

be tamed.

 

you with your

young and rosy cheeks.

you tamed what could not be tamed

you by the shade of a river

you by the

 

(BO-ring.)

 

(cut to crazy brown man

climbing in the mountains

with a dog at his side—

Eat you an energy bar, fool!)

 

Hell yeah I’m still protesting

the Vietnam War,

and this is how I show it.

 

(cut to crazy white man

in Florida swamp

wearing jean shorts

nothing else

real deep tan

wild eyes)

 

This is how you show it, sir?

By getting drunk out here,

disturbing the peace

out here!?

 

You lookin’ to excise

some force against me—

and my brothers here,

back up in them there jungles?

 

(Six to eight patrol officers

with drill sergeant hats and

wearing plastic gloves

look downward, upward

outward)

 

(Cut to stern

white man

wearing a wool sweater

and reasonable pants

but a crazed look in his eye

just the same)

 

forest rangers with drawn guns

this time

different clip—

could be Washington where that

Bear Man guy got mauled—him and

his girlfriend. (Dumbasses.)

 

You can’t live on this island, sir.

This is a protected island.

There are protected species here, sir.

(cut to stern white man)

I am a protected specie, too!

I have a right to live, too!

Undiminished! Amidst this wild

and precious place! (starts to

strip off his clothes standing on

polished black stones

at the water’s edge)

 

(cut back to Florida swamp man)

Is that it! Use your m—— force

against me! For your information

I am not done protesting

the Vietnam War!

 

Park rangers capture him with a net,

rough him up—

then shoot him with

rubber bullets in the groin,

kick over his campsite,

write the report

two fingered:

Soiled shorts

en route

to station.

Resisted arrest.

Indecent exposure.

 

(Laughter! Applause!)

Flashes of Light: Staying Alive After War

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An average of 18 veterans commit suicide each day.
The source for the suicide statistic is not some obscure organization with an anti-war agenda, as might be expected, but an organization that probably knows something about the rate at which veterans are killing themselves, the U.S. Department of Veterans Affairs.
I mentioned this statistic in passing to an acquaintance, a retired schoolteacher, and his response was to let out a low whistle and say, “Soon there won’t be any veterans left.” And maybe this is the point. Every veteran who kills himself is one less potential terrorist, one less potential Benjamin Colton Barnes, one less distraught soul. And the more veterans that kill themselves, the less the country has to deal with listening to us.
Not long after I commented on the death of Benjamin Colton Barnes, I had a chance to join up with a small group of veterans and experience the Sawatch Mountains of Colorado on an Outward Bound course. I was a little nervous about the trip because I didn’t know who would be there, and meeting new people isn’t easy for me. But the trip coordinator explained that Abigail could come along. So I went.
Outward Bound is a well-established outdoor education organization that began in Wales in 1941 with the training of young seamen to help them withstand the rigors of sea duty. Beginning in 2008, and relying on generous donations from the Sierra Club and other private donors, Outward Bound has been able to provide wilderness courses to veterans at no charge.
This opportunity for veterans to connect with other veterans and experience the backcountry wilderness away from society has proven to be invaluable, particularly for those dealing with post-traumatic stress.
The founder of Outward Bound, Kurt Hahn, viewed society at large as suffering from a decline in fitness, initiative, imagination, skill, self-discipline and compassion. His curriculum was modeled to address these failings. Today, Outward Bound has added an international Peacebuilding branch, a reflection of Kurt Hahn’s dedication to cooperation and compassion among all people.
There were six other veterans on the course, all male. I was the only one in my 30s. Everyone else was in their 20s. It was not long before we lapsed into the adolescent pranking so prevalent within all the branches of the military, but particularly so in the combat branches, and particularly so among the infantry, which comprised most of our group.
But beneath the banter and joking, at least some of us were wondering how we had managed not to kill ourselves. And not abstractly wondering, but wondering in the particular. It turned out that most of us had had problems staying alive and maintaining a sense of direction and purpose. Some, like Tim, a 25-year old Marine who did tours in Iraq and Afghanistan, went through phases of hard-core “professional” drinking. Will, 29, went through a long period, as in months, of not leaving his room. “Just smoked pot and watched South Park.”
(Will would later blurt out, angrily, after a course instructor gently intimated that we should be proud of our service, that he was in fact not proud: “I was over there committing war crimes…responsible for a whole generation of Iraqi men missing from the landscape.”)
But perhaps the most important thing I heard was a story told by Brendan O’Byrne, 27, a veteran of the Korengal Valley of Afghanistan and one of the soldiers featured in the documentary Restrepo. It was the evening of the 4th day and we were camped at 11,000 feet in the Collegiate Peaks Wilderness. The temperature was not much above 0 degrees and we were sitting in a snow kitchen fashioned with our avalanche shovels. In the freezing darkness, with our bulky coats, occasional foot stomping, and muted conversations, we resembled as much the inmates of a Siberian gulag as anything else. But we felt at home.
Brendan was talking to Tim and I was halfway listening in, holding onto a cup of cocoa, feeling Abigail shivering slightly beneath my hand. The bench of snow was cold, but bearable.
“Let me tell you this story,” Brendan said. “There’s this Zen master out walking with some students in this massive storm, and it’s completely dark so they can’t see, and they’re on a narrow trail. If they stop they die of exposure, if they keep going, they risk slipping off the trail to their deaths.
“So what they do is, they wait for a flash of lightning, get their bearings in that brief moment and continue on as long as they can, then they stop again, wait for another lightning flash, and so on. In this way they make it safely to the monastery. Once they’re there, a student says to the Zen master, ‘I’m glad we made it. I was worried I would die before reaching Enlightenment.’
“The Zen master shakes his head and says, ‘Enlightenment is not the sun that shines all day but the lightning that gives only quick glimpses, allowing us to move from one troubled place to another.’ That’s what you have to do, Tim,” says Brendan. “Keep moving. Keep fighting.”
In the darkness I don’t have to disguise a brief spell of emotion.
With the same heart that brought us into the service in the first place, the belief that there was something bigger than ourselves, which we were willing to die for, and which we all discovered in the end was not some bullshit notion of our country or democracy or the capitalist system, but our flesh and blood brothers, the ones we ended up getting tossed into the mix with, the ones we confided in, the ones that may or may not have come back with us, Brendan reminded me of something I have been wanting to say for a long time.
Stop wasting us.

Benjamin Colton Barnes: The death of an American soldier-killer

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Fleeing for his life, Benjamin Colton Barnes, Iraq War veteran, took to the snowy wilderness of Mount Rainier National Park on New Year’s Day. Wearing only sneakers, jeans and a T-shirt, he managed to elude authorities for hours, making it several miles on foot through the frozen wilderness.

His body was spotted from a search plane the following morning hours ahead of a pursuing SWAT team equipped with winter gear and snowshoes. Given how far back they fell off his trail, it’s evident the SWAT team was in no rush to reach him.

As darkness set in and temperatures dropped below freezing, the unlucky private slogged on, desperate and deranged, while the search team hunkered down to wait for the inevitable: the death of yet another broken and malfunctioning American soldier.

Private Barnes, 24, had been in trouble for a long time. He’d been discharged from the Army for alcohol issues and had lost a child custody battle. He was also dealing with the suicide of a close friend and fellow Iraq veteran who killed himself two months earlier.

In his addled state, Barnes never imagined that his pursuers could be hours behind him. He knew he was facing extermination at their hands. So he thrashed on by starlight until his legs, long numb with cold, simply stopped responding. Like a well-trained soldier, he went on until he could go no further.

His body was discovered half-submerged in Paradise Creek bordered by high bluffs of snow, the cause of death drowning with hypothermia a contributing factor. The search team, when they finally reached him, took pictures of themselves at the scene. They observed he had lost a sneaker in the chase.

The only reason the death of Benjamin Colton Barnes has attracted such attention is because he did not go alone. After driving past a park checkpoint on New Year’s Day, fleeing an incident in which he opened fire on a New Year’s Eve party wounding four people, he fired upon a park ranger who blocked the road with her vehicle. She later bled to death.

Had Barnes simply headed off into the frozen wilderness to die, his story would have been unexceptional. After all, scores of returning veterans, traumatized and afflicted, have committed suicide over the last decade. While their deaths are viewed as tragic or unfortunate, they have become an acceptable consequence of war.

Maybe exposing our sons and daughters to the ravages of war has become too easy for us.

Until all our children share in the risk of military service by way of a draft or compulsory service, war will remain an attractive option for politicians looking to make statements. Only an involved and engaged population with sons and daughters at risk has an incentive to keep the government under control.

Our birds are coming home to roost, one by one. When they did as they were told, we extolled them. When they went off the tracks, we abandoned them. Now they are landing among us, firing their weapons in our faces and freezing to death in sneakers in the shadows of our mountains.

The Department of Homeland Security is now listing returning Iraq and Afghanistan war veterans as psychologically unstable and susceptible to recruitment by terrorist organizations.

Welcome home.

 

 

 

My Iraq War: Taking Aim at the Destroyer

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By the time President Obama took office in 2008, we knew that everything the Bush administration said in its pitch for war against Iraq was lies.

We’d learned that Saddam Hussein had no connection to al-Qaida and nothing to do with 9/11; that he did not have nuclear capability and was not on his way to becoming a nuclear power; and that he no longer possessed biological or chemical agents.

Assisted by a pliant and largely passive press, the Bush administration managed to spin up a war in the fall of 2002, in newspapers, on talk shows and during presidential briefings in which we were told, point blank, “Iraq is part of the war on terror.”

They frightened us with horrible images, warned us of the lethality of even a single drop of Hussein’s chemical stores. In an October 2002 speech, President Bush stressed the growing threat of a nuclear attack and the danger of waiting for a smoking gun to “come in the form of a mushroom cloud.”

We were fooled. Fooled into a nine-year debacle that has cost us nearly a trillion dollars, stretched the limits of our military and inflicted untold suffering upon thousands.

The end to the war has been declared. But the declaration hasn’t been that important. A private army of contractors remains in Iraq, funded in part by the $6 billion 2012 budget of the U.S. Embassy in Baghdad. So is the war really over?

Though we grieve for the dead, what about the living? What about the thousands of widows and orphans? The thousands of soldiers savaged by roadside bombs, filling the orthopedics ward, the neurosurgical unit, and the psychiatric outpatient department? In 2010 alone, tens of thousands of soldiers were medicated on $280 million of mood stabilizers, antidepressants and sleep aids: Prozac, Paxil, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Valium, Klonopin, Wellbutrin, Ativan, Restoril, Xanax, Adderall, Ritalin, Haldol, Risperdal, Seroquel, Ambien, Lunesta, Elavil and Trazodone.

And then there is this to consider: the fear and loathing we have fueled in the Middle East by an occupation that has lasted nearly a decade.

Is the Iraq occupation so different from other military occupations in world history? Here is an example from my own family. Within 10 hours of the military strike on Pearl Harbor, the Japanese attacked the Philippines and began a period of brutal military occupation that lasted from 1942 to 1945. During this period, an estimated 1 million Filipinos were killed.

My father, born on the island of Luzon in 1925, was part of the insurgency that rose to resist the invaders. On his birthday—which he celebrated recently with two of his sisters visiting from California—he wished for “peace all over the world.”

But he is unusual. My auntie’s position is more typical.

“You still hate the Japanese, don’t you?” she asked me at the table. She is older than my father, nearly 90, and she is not done hating the Japanese for the misery they inflicted half a century ago.

Although she is a slight woman, probably no more than 80 pounds, I can tell there is some strength in her, and she would spend her last reserves scratching out the eyes of a Japanese soldier. A devout Catholic who has traveled at times with a 3-foot Virgin of Lourdes statue, she is sure that the tsunami that devastated Japan in March was sent by God to punish them.

This is the kind of hatred that wars rely on and propagate.

I have seen my auntie’s wrath echoed in the eyes of the Iraqis during my year in Iraq. I have seen the hatred in their eyes as we invaded their homes and scattered their belongings, as we manhandled them at checkpoints, as we terrorized them.

How many al-Qaida sympathizers have we created over this near decade of occupation and violence? How many terrorists have we given birth to by prodding their loved ones with spears, by blowing up their countryside and cities, by killing their parents?

Paul K. Chappell, a fellow Army captain, West Pointer and Iraq veteran, wrote a book called The End of War: How Waging Peace Can Save Humanity, Our Planet, and Our Future. As the son of a veteran of both the Korean and Vietnam Wars, and witness to his father’s emotional struggles, Paul was exposed to the tragedy of war at an early age. In his book he argues that we cannot afford to passively accept the decisions of our government to lead us into conflict. Here are his guidelines for when we must stop and question our decision-makers:

• The more lives there are at risk, the more important it is for us to question.

• The more profitable something is, and the more a few people stand to gain, the more important it is for us to question.

• The more someone advocates violence, fear and hatred, the more important it is for us to question.

When we most needed to question our highest officials about their claims of Iraqi threat to our national security, we failed.

Regrettably, I did not begin to question the Iraq War until 2005, when my commander, Col. Ted Westhusing, in despair over the corruption and human rights abuses taking place, went to his trailer at Camp Dublin and shot himself in the head.

Not only did I fail to question the Iraq War, I even watched with some degree of martial pride as the bombs and missiles began to strike Baghdad on March 20, 2003. Like millions of other Americans, I was suckered by the terror propaganda presented by the Bush administration.

How could they have focused on the profit of war and not its cost? How could they have thought only of the lucrative contracts and not of the bodies? Maybe none of them knew the words of the poet Donald Hall: “You think that their dying is the worst thing that could happen. Then they stay dead.”

Somehow the country fell into the hands of not just war criminals but bumbling war criminals. They had their way largely because the military, far from being a democratic cross-section of our youth, is populated with the offspring of the poor and the working class, not the children of privilege and influence.

Ask the headmasters of our nation’s top boarding schools, which educate the rich and powerful for $40,000 a year, what personal sacrifice their respective alumni have made in the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan.

In his article “Class Warfare,” Josiah Bunting III, president of the Harry Frank Guggenheim Foundation and himself a former headmaster, presents the record of one of this country’s most prestigious but unnamed boarding schools. During WWI, 40 of its 400 students died in the military. During WWII, the number was 60. There were 10 during the Korean conflict, five for the Vietnam War, and so far, none in Iraq or Afghanistan.

If you place a call to Phillips Academy (annual tuition $42,350), officials will inform you that although none of their alumni count among the nearly 4,500 dead, the school does have the distinction of having graduated the individual responsible for launching the war, George W. Bush. President Bush would go on to avoid service in Vietnam by joining the Texas Air National Guard.

His second in command, Vice President Dick Cheney, received five deferments during the Vietnam years. Later in life, when questioned about these deferments, Cheney famously remarked that he had “other, more important things to do.”

A list of influential Americans who have bought their way out of military service can be found in Howard Zinn’s book A People’s History of the United States. During the time of the Civil War, this list included J.P. Morgan, John D. Rockefeller, Andrew Carnegie, Philip Armour and Jay Gould.

James Mellon is also on that list. His father wrote to him that “a man may be a patriot without risking his own life or sacrificing his health. There are plenty of lives less valuable.”

This abdication of personal responsibility on the part of the wealthy and influential of this country has allowed the rest of us to be led into wars “not fought for national security, but wars that are put into place for political or policy reasons rather than out of any real necessity.”

That is how Dr. Ronald Glasser, a Vietnam veteran drafted in 1968, characterizes the Iraq War in his book Broken Bodies, Shattered Minds: A Medical Odyssey from Vietnam to Afghanistan. He writes that in political wars, winning is hard to define and victory is a distant illusion. “Political wars usually end by everyone simply losing interest. Eventually, the tedium and casualties and the loss of treasure become too great to ignore, and the wars are simply abandoned and closed down while everyone pretends it wasn’t that important.”

I am still searching for the mock U.S. destroyer in the lake, the destroyer that Iraqi commandos were reportedly training to attack. I encounter it in my dreams, a sloppy structure built of lumber and Styrofoam, only partially afloat. Where are the Iraqis? They are running in the shallow water, shouting loudly at one another. One throws down a rope from above to a small group gathered below. There is a disagreement over who is to climb first. There is some pushing and shoving.

Two attempt to start climbing at the same time. I can’t help smiling, even though I am there to kill them. Several times I raise my rifle and take aim. It isn’t until they have all made it up the rope and are balancing on the narrow beam that I find myself lowering my rifle, unable to shoot, unable to do the bidding of my country any longer.

 

 

Not All Soldiers Are Human Beings: Paul K. Chappell

Now I understand how I feel about Abigail…as though she tugged me to safety…

“… In the U.S. Army as in ancient Greece, the most admired trait in soldiers is not their ability to kill but their willingness to sacrifice for their friends.

The Battle of Thermopylae occurred in Greece in 480 BC, when three hundred Spartan soldiers and their allies held off an invading Persian army. Since then, more people throughout the world have looked to this battle for inspiration than perhaps any other battle in history. I always found this interesting, since the Battle of Thermopylae did not inspire countless generations of people because the Spartans won, but because they lost. The Spartans at Thermopylae are admired because they stood courageously against overwhelming odds and died to protect their loved ones. These are the same reasons why many Medal of Honor recipients are admired today.

Although we could list countless examples of unconditional love from every era in history, I cannot say that every mammal shares the experience we call unconditional love, because I can only speak form my own experiences as a human being. However, I can show that other mammals are willing to protect and sacrifice for the members of their group, even if they are not related to those members by blood. Whether we call this behavior unconditional love or not, abundant evidence reveals that dogs, wolves, and primates exhibit selfless behavior that contributes to the well-being of others.

Many of the soldiers who served as dog handlers during the Vietnam War, for example, would certainly agree that dogs are capable of experiencing unconditional love, and these soldiers have lots of evidence to support this claim. There is a reason, after all, why human beings forged such strong bond with dogs, and why dogs are considered man’s best friend. Because of its pack mentality, a dog can become a valued member of the human family. The army takes a humanity’s close kinship with dogs even further.

In the army today, dogs are not viewed as pieces of equipment, but as soldiers. In fact, military working dogs are given rank, promotions, and awards just like human soldiers, and they always outrank their dog handlers. When army dogs complete their military service, they even receive a retirement ceremony along with an honorable discharge before they are given to a civilian family for adoption. Although the behavior of dogs differs from that of human beings in many ways, military working dogs reveal that we share one form of behavior crucial to our survival. The following example will better explain why many people in the army do not see dogs as pieces of equipment, but as soldiers who are capable of experiencing unconditional love.

During the Vietnam War, the most dangerous position for a soldier on patrol was walking “point.” Because the soldier marched in front of the patrol, he would be the first person attacked  by the enemy during an ambush and the most likely person to die from a booby trap. Due to these dangers, the soldier walking point was often a dog handler. Military working dogs were trained to smell enemy ambushes, locate snipers, and could even hear trip wires vibrating in the breeze.

In 1969, Corporal John Flannelly served as a dog handler in Vietnam with a German shepherd named Bruiser. “They told me that this dog was going to be my new best friend,” he said, “and that I would probably get closer to him than any human being that I have ever known in my entire life, and they were right. I was closer with that dog than most people are with their wives, their children…we were inseparable.”

In September of 1969, Flannelly and Bruiser were leading their platoon on a patrol through enemy territory when Bruiser spotted danger. “All of a sudden Bruiser stopped dead in his tracks. His nose was up and his ears were twitching, and I noticed some movement from the bush. I had to make a decision, and I chose to fire. The next thing I knew, all hell broke loose. There were automatic weapons fired, hand grenades, rockets being fired.”

The explosion tore Flannelly’s body apart and knocked him to the ground. “I looked down. I thought my arm was blown off. My whole side was blown open. I could actually watch my left lung filling up and down, and then I watched it slowly deflate. Bruiser was just standing next to me, looking at me. He had a very sad look in his eyes. He knew we were in way over our heads. I didn’t want him to be there. I didn’t want him to have to see me die. I told him, “Bruiser…go…go.” It was very hard, because every time I spoke I was spitting up blood, and I was just trying to stay conscious, because I just wanted to get him out of there before I died. He wouldn’t leave.”*

Instead of leaving, Bruiser tugged on Flannelly’s uniform with his teeth. Realizing that Bruiser was trying to pull him to safety, Flannelly grabbed on to Bruiser’s body harness with his good arm. Bruiser than dragged Flannelly away from the gunfire and explosions. “He dragged me back. I’m not sure how far it was. It seemed like forever. I don’t know where he got the strength to pull me. While he was dragging me he was hit I believe two times, but he was determined to get me out of there. His loyalty was immeasurable. I’ll never be able to thank him enough for that. I owe my life to that dog.”

Other mammals display incredible acts of selflessness, but since human beings must rely on cooperation far more than any other mammal to survive, we have a unique human ability that makes us different from every other mammal. Because we can strengthen our unconditional life to a limitless degree, we have the capacity for universal love, which is the ability to love all of humanity, even all life. Two of the most admired and influential people in history–Jesus and Gautama Buddha–embraced our unique human capacity for universal love. Martin Luther King Jr., Mahatma Gandhi, Albert Schweitzer, Mother Teresa, and Henry David Thoreau also demonstrated that human beings have an endless capacity for unconditional love. To understand how our endless capacity for unconditional love gives us our endless capacity to cooperate and survive, we must further explore how unconditional love gives us the power to end war.”

From Will War Ever End? A Soldier’s Vision of Peace for the 21st Century, by Captain Paul K. Chappell, U.S. Army

* War Dogs, America’s Forgotten Heroes: The Untold Story of Dogs in Combat, narr. Martin Sheen, VHS (GRP, Nature’s Recipe Pet Foods, 1999).

The Detention of Americans: How the quest for absolute security is compromising our democracy

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The Senate voted in favor of allowing the military to detain American citizens indefinitely without trial on U.S. soil.

I am concerned for my own safety.

Although I am not a terrorist, I oppose this aspect of the National Defense Authorization Act, and because I oppose the provision—drafted to “keep us safe”—I fear I could be depicted, rather easily, as a terrorist sympathizer.

For who else would be foolish enough to oppose antiterrorism legislation? This could be the poor logic used to intimidate all who assert that this proposal is unconstitutional.

Let me be clear on what the Senate has voted to approve: a measure to permit the government to detain American citizens without any formal charges, for an indefinite period time and with no access to legal representation. Like the nightmare depicted by Franz Kafka in The Trial, it will be enough that one is accused. The accusation will be sufficient to warrant indefinite military detention of American citizens—something we have not seen since the internment of Japanese-American families in WWII.

President Obama still has the authority to veto this legislation. If he, as a trained constitutional lawyer who understands due process, vetoes it as he has threatened to do, he will undoubtedly be depicted by the right-wing media as a terrorist sympathizer. By others in the media, he may be considered weak on terrorism, despite his signing of Bin Laden’s death warrant earlier this year. Because of this tremendous pressure, President Obama may not have the political courage to veto.

So what then? If the measure becomes law, in less than one year U.S. citizens could be accused of terrorism, and on this basis, they will begin vanishing. They may be people you have heard of—dissidents, writers, activists—or they may be anonymous. In any event, they will not have the right to legal representation, and they will be taken away, like enemy combatants picked up off a mountainside in Afghanistan, to be detained indefinitely with no hope of a trial.

Like the suspects at Guantanamo Bay, they will likely be tortured. They will likely endure solitary confinement. Many of them, in response to the prolonged isolation, will likely go insane.

If I am accused of being a terrorist sympathizer by the FBI or by the CIA, or by some secretive organization within the Department of Homeland Security, I will have the following to say in my defense: I am not a terrorist. I am not any sort of terrorist. I am not a small-time terrorist, with an explosive vest and explosive sneakers; nor am I a big-time terrorist, with tanks and laser-guided missiles. I have no desire to inflict terror on people anywhere in the world.

Although I was trained to kill in the Army, and assisted in killing in Iraq, every day that I live I am retraining myself—for peace. I believe in nonviolence. I believe in the Constitution of the United States.

I believe, like Howard Zinn, that between the points of war and apathy exist a thousand possibilities, which should all be explored.

I believe, like Dwight D. Eisenhower, that “when people speak to you about a preventive war, you tell them to go and fight it. After my experience, I have come to hate war.”

I believe, like Edward Abbey, that “a patriot must always be ready to defend his country against his government.”

And I believe, like Abraham Lincoln, that “America will never be destroyed from the outside. If we falter and lose our freedoms, it will be because we destroyed ourselves.”

Please urge President Obama to veto this provision by emailing him through his website at www.whitehouse.gov.

“Dear John” Letter from Department of Homeland Security

                                                                              November 17, 2011

Dear John:

Thank you for your letter. We understand you served in the military for 15 years. Examination of your service record reveals that only a portion of those 15 years was spent on active duty, while the remainder was spent with National Guard and Reserve units in New Mexico. Be that as it may, in responding to letters it is customary, when warranted, to acknowledge and express appreciation for military service as a preliminary matter. Though few of us at this agency have served in the military, many of us view our work as being military in nature, so we feel we understand and

Albuquerque, October 25, 2011

share in the sacrifice of the military, and view the distinction between our jobs as a matter of semantics and pay grades.

As of this time, the use of drone strikes by the Department of Homeland Security against U.S. citizens residing within the U.S. (or within foreign territories readily accessed by ground forces) has not been authorized. We decline at this time to comment on any potential future plans to implement drones within our Department given the highly sensitive nature of such operations.

Your concern that the military is preparing for war against its own people is hugely unwarranted. Although there have been high-level discussions regarding the possible deployment of troops onto domestic battlefields—in the event conflict were to surface—these contingencies would only occur after all other courses of action had failed. It is our official position that the militarization of domestic police forces over the last decades, most notably in the wake of 9/11, has been so successful as to make the reliance on military forces for domestic peacekeeping operations anachronistic. In any event, if military forces were to be deployed in a domestic situation, rest assured that care would be taken to ensure that no Soldier, Sailor, or Marine would be deployed in or around his HOR (Home of Record). Retired generals serving as top military consultants have been adamant that no Servicemember should be put in the difficult position of having to choose between following a lawful order and firing upon known persons. The fact that some infantry and MP units have already been subjected to regional and state vetting of the manner described in no way indicates an actual plan for Homeland action.

Agencies such as ours are routinely tasked to consider the probable as well as the possible, the wildly unlikely as well as the absurd, just as was done in Iraq, when the Department of Defense was called upon to contemplate the highly implausible scenario of a civil insurgency and the need for a long-term occupation to secure and impose order following the invasion. While it is true that our national response to that scenario, which included your surprise deployment with the 98th Infantry Division—a reserve unit last tested in WWII—was not a contingency that was actually planned for, the cooperation of all military men and women of any branch and certification to get the job done however possible was something the Nation was thankfully able to count on.

But let me now address the meat of your letter. Your concern that Constitutional rights are being violated across the country, and that these violations are indicative of something greater—what you describe as a “concerted effort to dismantle and reduce our civil liberties and cow the citizenry”—is a matter I take deeply to heart given my position within this bureaucracy. Let me tell you this. The local, regional, and state police forces of this country are highly trained, highly skilled professionals. Many of them have received similar training that you received as a combat soldier. Many of them have been, with the offering of a few incentives, through courses offered by the Department of Homeland Security. Their weaponry and equipment is unmatched among police forces in other advanced Western nations. Their familiarization with firearms is not limited to handguns, but extends even to military firearms like the M-4 carbine. Additionally, their training in and real world use of non-lethal munitions such as rubber bullets and sandbags is also worthy of mention, and has undoubtedly helped save lives. Bottom line: the questioning of the professionalism of our Country’s first responders is something I am not willing to tolerate. They do a dirty job and they do it well, for too little pay, and they should be considered as much on the front lines of a war as any soldier serving in Iraq and Afghanistan.

The crowd control and eviction operations that have taken place across this country over the last two months, from New York City to Seattle, have been largely untelevised in part because of the admirable level of restraint exercised by the officers involved. It is highly likely that had these operations been conducted in another country, the human toll in terms of injury and possible death would have been much higher (and consequently the media coverage much greater). So it is a good thing that the media coverage has been so minimal. Furthermore, the debilitating defense sprays used against resisting individuals and crowds, although resulting in temporary blindness and intense pain, cause no permanent or lasting damage. The use of these defense sprays, by giving officers an alternative to lethal force, is actually of immense benefit to the public. We find your objection to their use, particularly your description of their effects as “cauterizing the senses,” unduly dramatic.

The Department of Homeland Security has always had as its central goal the protection, not the abuse, of the American people. If you look closely at the patches worn by Homeland Security agents—those that are in uniform—you can see what appears to be a bubble surrounding the United States. This bubble is a vivid reminder and representation of the shield of protection that our Department casts across the length and breadth of this Country through a highly organized and effective network of interconnected agencies and thousands upon thousands of highly trained and deeply loyal personnel. As a 15-year Army veteran who has experienced and understands loyalty to Country, it should give you great comfort to know that our Department is employing the same type of training and indoctrination that you received in order to create effective and obedient Homeland Security agents, willing to serve the needs of their Country in difficult times and under immense pressures, such as those that are developing now.

In closing, we assure you that this Department is comporting itself with the same honor and integrity as that found within the military branches with whom you served, and we will continue to treat and monitor all our citizens with the same tact, discretion and concern that you yourself receive.

Sincerely,

(name redacted for security purposes)

Department of Homeland Security